Secrets of a Nun

My Own Story

Secrets of a Nun is a revealing, uncompromisingly honest, and deeply moving look into one woman’s soul.

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Secrets of a Nun

Secrets of a Nun is a revealing, uncompromisingly honest, and deeply moving look into one woman’s soul.

At fifteen, Elizabeth, a talented athlete, gives up her dreams of competing in the Olympics to become a nun. Separating from her mother and twin sister, she leaves her friends and familiar world behind to pursue a saintly life. But she finds herself unprepared for what lies ahead. While her cloistered life commences as a profound spiritual and emotional journey, personal disenchantment takes root and slowly grows over the next twenty years. Elizabeth recoils against the restrictive atmosphere of convent life. She struggles with conflicting emotions until a forbidden love affair forces her to come to grips with her needs as a woman.

Over the course of striving to find her authentic self, she ultimately feels compelled to leave the Order. A true story inspires this fascinating account of courage and passion. It will shock you and bring a smile to your face as you follow the course of a young woman’s obsession to become a spiritual seeker—an obsession that, over time, transforms into a deeply felt desire for personal liberation.

What readers say about the book🧐

Elizabeth Upton entered the Catholic Church novitiate at the age of fifteen, completely sure that dedicating her life to Jesus Christ was her highest calling. Like many of the girls in her generation, Elizabeth was used to following instruction, tradition, as it were, and the rituals of the Church were comforting to her.The Catholic Church, like any other organization, was subject to the changing tides of society. And, as the 1950's with it's nuclear families, reluctantly and often violently, segued into the 1960's, so, too, did the Church.While the flower children fought with their parents and the sons of America's families died in a useless war in Vietnam; a subtler battle was being fought in every chapterhouse, novitiate and convent in the Church.Elizabeth Upton uses the term "girl-nun" to describe the state the Church, it's policies and it's defenders, the Mother Superiors, would keep each nun in for life. Unable to think for herself, strictly following orders and self-effacing at all times, a nun never grew into a woman.Of course, along with the flower power movement came Vatican II, one of the most chaotic and influential changes in the modern Catholic Church. Suddenly, these girl nuns who had been counseled their entire lives to repress their sinful emotions and live for eternity were exposed to the women's consciousness movement and to free love.What I admired the most about Elizabeth Upton's book is her integrity and honesty in writing of her experiences that had to be excruciatingly painful. She faced the institutional changes with fiery courage and her own potentially devastating circumstances with bravery and personal power. Anyone facing a "Dark Night of the Soul" should absolutely read this book.

Rabid Reader

(Amazon Review)
About the Author

Elizabeth Upton

Elizabeth Upton is a best-selling American author and influential writer of gripping fiction and inspiring self-help non-fiction books.

Her best-selling books, ‘Secrets of a Nun: My Own Story,’ ‘The Silver Woman of Fire’ and the newest ‘The Healing Swords of Love and Innocence’ helped set her firmly within the world’s literary map. With many novels to her credit, her new book in June 2022 is titled ‘Lovers’ Secrets and Revenge,’ a gripping thriller, Elizabeth’s favorite she enjoyed writing was ‘The Shaman and The Mafia,’ as she shares, “The creation of this story has been an exciting journey. If possible, I would love to meet all of the characters in this book in real life.” The author’s non-fiction books and novels are available on Amazon, and Amazon Kindle while featured on fine literary book sites and magazines.

Elizabeth was born and raised in Los Angeles, CA., until the age of sixteen, when she entered a New York State Convent and became a nun for twenty years, but she yearned for a more authentic spiritual life. Elizabeth left the convent and chose to attend and receive her B.A. from Syracuse University. Moving back to her native state of California, she attended and received her M.A. from Chapman University in psychology. The Author began working for over thirty years in family counseling as a social worker and probation officer working with troubled teens and abused children. She is a speaker, spiritual mentor, and advisor.

Elizabeth is happily married and enjoys writing books for her reader fans around the world. When the Author is not writing, she works out with a personal trainer to stay fit and healthy; she loves spending time on long walks on the beach with her husband and dog. Her favorite colors are blue, green, and gold. She enjoys reading good books by some of her favorite authors like Geraldine Brooks, Hanh, Jerry Archer, Joseph Murphy, and Michael Connelly. Elizabeth and her husband reside in Santa Barbara, California.

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